Friday, April 24, 2015

A Blessing and a Curse

Diary Entry
(9th grade)

"Nicole tryed to kill herself.
I really mean it, she even
showed me the marks on her wrists.
she told me she wouldn't do it (again).
I know I should believe her, but
what if she gets really upset and
does it anyway."

I don't know
if in that moment
I truly understood the impact
this event had on me, even
nine days later.

Diary Entry

"Life sucks.  And there's only one
way out and Nicole knows that way.
I'd never do it though."

I can't say,
at what point in time
I realized
truly realized
the influence this moment had
on me.

I'd never do it though.
I'd never do it though.
a simple statement, but
the implications...

To be truthful
I'm not sure if I am thankful
or annoyed at her
for taking this option
away from me.

I realize how that sounds
& more often than not
thankful wins out.

but still I wonder...

Poetic Verse:  If I could, this would be my suicide note

"How do I forget how to breathe?
If only I could, I might finally
leech myself of this hope(lessness)"

On inspiration for this piece: This idea was pulled from Poetic Asides's 2015 April PAD Challenge: Day 24. "For today’s prompt, write a moment poem."  

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